… is what I am now.<\/p>\n
My life sucks… FUBAR<\/abbr> doesn’t even begin to describe it. And yet I put on this happy, everything is fine face. It’s stupid, stupid, stupid!<\/p>\n I shouldn’t even be writing this here, but hell, it’s 4am, I’m depressed and I need the release!<\/p>\n I’m falling behind with my work out of sheer laziness. I recognise the signs and symptoms, but inertia prevents me from doing anything. I need a good swift kick on my butt, but in the US, everyone is too damn PC to do that. I need my mom to twist my ears and give me a good talking to. I’m too embarrassed to call her up and tell her that!<\/p>\n Where is this going? Where am I<\/b> going? I honestly don’t know. I’ve been happy-go-lucky, follow-the-default-path for too long now. Maybe I can still change, but it’s not happening now.<\/p>\n Why can’t someone pay me for doing the things I like to do? Fat chance of that happening, because the things I like to do are reading, watching movies and surfing the internet. And of course, writing inane blog entries.<\/p>\n Look at my reading list on the right. It hasn’t changed in over a month. Wanna know why? I keep finding more books to read and never finishing the ones I’ve started!! And I’m too lazy to change the list on AllConsuming.net.<\/p>\n It’s Thursday and I’ve already been waiting for the weekend for over a day now, when I can be lazy and not feel guilty. Am I self-destructive? I think so!<\/p>\n Oh, damn, it’s 4:20am… I’m due to teach a class at 11:30am. I end this here.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" … is what I am now. My life sucks… FUBAR doesn’t even begin to describe it. And yet I put on this happy, everything is fine face. It’s stupid, stupid, stupid! I shouldn’t even be writing this here, but hell, it’s 4am, I’m depressed and I need the release! I’m falling behind with my work… Continue reading Not Happy…<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[9,7,13],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/125"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=125"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/125\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=125"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=125"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/absolutegeeky.com\/oook\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=125"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}